4/10 「無題」
関町 昨夏
暮れの街道 鈴虫の鳴く声
4/10 "Untitled"
Sekimachi, last summer
The highway at dusk, the cries of the bell crickets1
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4/10
手紙を書くのはこれで二通目になる。手紙と言っても君が読むことは、たぶんないだろうから、日記に近いんだろうと思うけれど。最近は音楽以外に何をしてたんだろうね。身の回りの整理をした。マンションを引き払った。あの国へ向かう旅券を手に入れて、簡単な荷造りをした。最低限の荷物と、インク瓶と、万年筆と、カメラと、アコースティックギターと、詩と楽譜を仕舞う木箱だけ。バイトで貯めてきた資金があれば、夏が終わるまでは持つだろうと思う。
これから僕は旅に出る。人生最後の旅だ。
今更な話だけどさ、音楽がどうとか、売れないだとか、生きるのが苦しいだとか、
本当にもういいんだ。エルマ。この旅で僕は何を思って、何を感じるんだろう。
4/10
This will be the second letter I've written to you. Well, I call them letters, but you're probably never going to read them, so I guess they're closer to diary entries. What have I been doing lately, other than music... I've gotten my personal matters in order. I moved out of my apartment. I got tickets to travel out there, and did some basic packing. A bare minimum of luggage, ink bottles, a fountain pen, a camera, my acoustic guitar, and a wooden box to hold lyrics and sheet music. That's it. With the funds I saved up from my job, I think I'll hold out until the end of the summer.
I'm about to go on a journey. The final journey of my life.
It's a little late to be saying this, but all that stuff about how my music is, about it not selling, about how life is so painful,
I don't care about any of that anymore. Elma - I wonder what I'll think on this journey. I wonder what I'll feel.
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[8/25] That's Why I Quit Music (だから僕は音楽を辞めた) --->
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1 Sekimachi is a neighborhood in the Nerima Ward of Tokyo. Bell crickets (suzumushi) are known for their song and often kept as pets in Japan. In haiku and elsewhere, they're a seasonal marker for autumn, so their mention here is likely meant to indicate that the summer was almost over.